My mother was born with fetal alcohol syndrome. Not much was known about the disease so her condition was pretty much untreated. She used drugs and alcohol for most of her life. When my dad fought for full custody of my siblings and i, her physical and mental abuse was gone, but my father's sexual abuse began. When I was 11, he accused me of smelling bad after taking a shower. He would finger me, excusing the behavior by saying he was checking to make sure I was cleaning myself properly. It escalated to him taking my virginity pretty quickly.